Restored by GOD

Things have been going great these days...spiritually. And it is all that matters anyway. I feel sort of renewed, revived by a higher power that works within me. The thing is that it happens out of nowhere. And none of the people around me contribute to this superb change inside me; not my parents, sibling, friends, or bf.  It sort of just...happens. One thing straight though, it occurs once I decided to trust God completely; handing Him my life, letting Him complete me. I've had a deep longing for God since months;  I yearned for Him. I wanted to be able to feel His presence within my heart, but I just couldn't bring myself to sense Him. And then I just let go; resolving to put my trust no matter what. Accepting. Surrendering. Leaving behind the questions that start off with the word "why?".

And man, it feels good. So good.

I feel like a huge burden is just lifted off my shoulders and I can finally breathe again. Having a relationship with God should definitely be on anyone's priority list. It brings you an inner peace which existence is unfathomable even to the greatest minds.

Love Him, that's all you need to do.

Free at last

 

Hoorayy!! It's gonna be a different tone with this one. No rule, no structure, nothing; just words fresh from the brain flying straight through my fingers on the keyboard. I'm done. Yes, you heard me right, I'm.fuckin.done. I finally got my shit together and am ready to take over the world! :p

After years of questioning, I finally received an answer. Not really sure how it all happened, but it was definitely an epiphany. I don't know why it took this long to figure out; nevertheless, I'm perfectly content and that's all that matters. The years have been quite tough, especially this last few weeks, but this last few weeks turn out to be all that is required to finally come full circle with the devil within me.

I've finally made peace with the Man above. And it feels so good (absolutely beyond anything) to be reconnected with Him after so long. I feel like a lost sheep being found by its shepherd. To feel your soul flickers with life is indescribable. Knowing that I have an undefeated security system, simply by resting my heart in God, is a wonderful source of peace of mind. 

There's still gonna be more challenges, more roller coaster rides, and more mystery to solve; however, as long as you're at peace spiritually, you become automatically unbeatable. You may not be in control of your body because of the disease you suffer, but you're in full power when it comes to your mind.

Until now, I can safely say that I won the battle

I'm finally home.