rambling#2

Hola, que tal? totally no bueno at the moment. It's one of those moments when nothing feels right. perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I have an awful lot of assignments to finish. yeah right, that's not something new. so why does this shitty feeling decide to show up uninvited and stay? maybe my period is approaching? nah, fuck it, I'm not one of those people who gets all drama-queen about a God-given natural cycle that no human can do nothing about. shit, I digress and this post has no point at all.

anyway, here's what's been bothering me. I know that life has a funny working method that no one can completely fathom, but the longer I live, the more I realize how freaking CRAZY it actually is. It just hit me yesterday. Got a really bad bad news from a best friend of mine. Something completely unexpected happened to her and now her whole life has been altered because of this one particular occurrence. Yes, life is unfair, but this is downright unfair. My heart aches for her so badly and the fact that there is literally nothing can be done to fix her problem really kills me. Yes, sometimes, the only way for us to learn valuable life lessons is by getting through an unpleasant experience. Yes, sometimes, getting through a painful phase of life is necessary for our own sake of spiritual maturity. And yes, nothing is accidental, everything happens for a reason. But is it possible that an unpleasant experience is just so awful that it becomes unbearable to the person who has to walk through it? I guess that's how we get thousands of suicides cases every year. And after a person gives up and decides to take his/her own life, whose fault is it now? Blame it on life? blame it on God? Blame it on the kid who hanged himself dead for wanting the pain to end? I have always hated those people who view suicide as an act of cowardice because it is not. Put your feet in that person's shoes, walk a mile or two, then tell me if you feel any pain, then you can judge.

My point is that some of the challenges life throws at us can be too hard. You make one mistake and bam! there's absolutely no going back. You gotta pay the price, and in some cases a very expensive price. I pray that she'll make it, and I hope this whole thing will turn out to be a blessing in disguise.